Today, I stood in the middle of a field and bawled my eyes out. It's a good thing I was wearing absorbent mittens. I've been feeling positively lost lately. For the first time in years, I have absolutely no direction. It's just so frustrating because a few short months ago, I seemed to be on such a solid path. Seemed. [...]
Maybe the Dog Needs Prozac
October 11, 2013 – Posted in: Depression, Dogs, Illustrated by Me, Jasper, Tammy ThinksWhile it's true I often wallow in a pit of despair rivaled only by that underground torture chamber occupied by the consumptive albino in The Princess Bride, I think it's possible that this week, I may have outdone myself. I actually depressed the dog. Jasper is perhaps the happiest being on earth. We joke that [...]
Depression — No, You Can’t Just Go Rub Some Dirt On It
June 11, 2013 – Posted in: Chronic Pain, Depression, Getting Older, Grief, Growing Up, Tammy ThinksYesterday, I found out a friend of mine from college died. She was on a 5-mile run, collapsed right before the finish, and never woke up. I feel terrible for her family. For her husband and three sons. For her parents. For her friends who are "her people" and will feel this the most. I [...]
Friday Fiction Part 18: Eric Wakes Up
May 24, 2013 – Posted in: Depression, Guilt, Novel in Progress, Tammy Thinks, Worst Mom Randomness, WritingThe saga continues -- we're still in the early 1990's. The Wongs are all meeting up in San Francisco, and Eric has taken refuge with Frangelica after his horrible run-in with Simon. Want to catch up (of course you do)? You can start at the beginning here, or get a list of everything here. ******** Eric could [...]
Even the the Crappy Moments on Facebook are Fake — And that’s “Fine”
March 4, 2013 – Posted in: Blogging, Complaining, Depression, First World Problems, Parenting, Worst Mom RantsEver since that study came out about Facebook making people depressed, I've read many a blog and Facebook post professing the need to "get real" about our lives. In the most recent article, "We Need to Quit Telling Lies on Facebook" on Kveller.com, Sarah Emily Tuttle-Singer writes about her "real" Saturday with the kids, not the cleaned-up, Instagram-filtered [...]
Haircuts and Butterflies — Unlocking the Secrets of the Universe
December 1, 2012 – Posted in: Beauty, Depression, First World Problems, Grief, Logan's Story, Memories, Personal Insanity, Sappy TammyWell, after three-and-a-half-plus months, I finally did it. I got my hair cut. I was starting to think I was going to end up like Crystal Gale. Or one of those Oprah makeovers where they find the woman who's also wearing huge glasses, circa 1970, and light blue mom jeans. I wasn't being a complete [...]
Happy Birthday to Me
February 28, 2012 – Posted in: Chronic Pain, Depression, Personal Insanity, WritingI had a really crappy day yesterday.In the morning, my coffee pot freaked out. There's nothing quite like the joy of dealing with piping hot liquid spilling onto the counter, burnt coffee smelling up the house, and wet coffee grounds sticking to every nook and cranny of a black, plastic container. I poured coffee/water/grounds mixture [...]
Mojo on the Run — Waiting for the Dark Days to Pass
November 2, 2011 – Posted in: Blogging, Chronic Pain, Cranky Tammy, Crazy Tammy, Depression, Holidays, Homework, Parenting, Personal Insanity, Shopping Hell, Things To Do with Kids, TravelI haven't been around much in Internet land. Last weekend, I took the kids to Monterey (which was quite the haul in a three-day span). Then they had to do Nevada Day reports (Sarah Winnemucca and the Hoover Dam, if you're just crazy curious). And, of course, there was Halloween. And yes, all of that stuff [...]
Something to Believe In
March 7, 2011 – Posted in: Bright Side of Life, Chronic Pain, Complaining, Depression, Elfie, Family, Illness, Mouths of Babes, Newt, Personal Insanity, Sappy TammySo I've been sick for about ten days with some killer, government-created, genetically-modified supervirus that strolled over to my microbiology beach and kicked protoplasm in the face of my flu shot. To say this is getting me down would be an understatement. Those scenes from Beaches with Barbara Hershey lying around the house, barely able [...]
Just Another Day on the High Wire
September 22, 2010 – Posted in: Autism Recovery, Chronic Pain, Crazy Tammy, Depression, Family, Grown-up Friends, Mawage, Momless, Newt's Story, Parenting, Personal InsanitySo at the risk of bringing everyone down, I'm having a rough day. Couple of days. Actually, make that a couple of weeks.Even if you know me personally, you most likely have no idea that I've been having a rough time. Because that's what I do. I just power through. I take the kids to [...]
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