Photo by Carrie Rheault Mason
The Plumas County Search and Rescue called today. Logan was found. He’d floated to the surface and was spotted by a fisherman near the Pennisula, much farther away than we ever thought he’d be.
Now it’s just a matter of waiting for them to bring him home. Well, bring his ashes home, really. We’re all experiencing such a wide swath of emotions right now. Relief. More grief. A strange sense of disappointment because it’s definitely true.
It’s going to be a long night. Sleep well, sweet Logey. We’ll do our best to do the same.
Logan’s Story Part 13: Home
Tammy Soong is a writer, wife, and mom from Reno, Nevada. She takes an absurd amount of pain medication, but not enough to have actually named her children "Newt" and "Elfie." She spends most days stressing out over clutter, writing stuff for this place, and working on podcasts with her gal pals, the Blogging Betties.
My thoughts remain with you and all your family. This has to be hard, but I hope that it helps everyone to cope with the loss of Logan.
Thanks Kath. I know it’ll help in the long run.
I so hope this brings you all a sense of closure. xoxo
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Me too. xo
((hugs)) wishing you and your family peace and closure.
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Thanks Andrea. Thanks for being here.
Well I was hoping it wasn’t real. However, I am glad he will be back home where he belongs.
I know. I know, I know, I know.
I am so sorry for your loss but am relieved for you and your family. May you all remember him well.
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We’re trying! I think he’d be proud of what we’re doing. Thanks Kelly.
I’m so sorry for your loss, my thoughts are with you ((HUGS))
Thanks Mandy. xo
So much of what you are writing, the thoughts you are documenting, are the exact same things I am thinking and asking and yelling and crying. I am so sorry for you and Sue and Garrett and Logan and the whole family …and myself.
Up until now I was able to sort of lie to myself, like maybe he slipped into a black whole and was still alive somewhere on an amazing new planet or something. But finding his body is cementing the loss in my heart. And I feel very heavy and sad.
Aside from that though I want to tell you about a dream I a had the other day… For the past few weeks I have been having scary dreams where I am in my house looking for Logan, ripping down the walls and tearing the house apart and I can never find him and then on Monday I had a dream that he jumped over my side yard fence and told me That I had to get up and go to school (weird?) He was with D and they were Laughing. And he was glowing and he was Laughing at me. He told me that Even though he died he hasn’t stopped learning and that I shouldn’t stop learning either. He was telling me about all the stuff he was learning in the non physical plane. And he was teasing me about how much smarter he is then me now. He just kept smiling at me and he was the same Logan when i looked at him but his presence felt a million times bigger. It was amazing. I am a typically very skeptical person who doesn’t give into hocus pocus so easily but I really truly believe It was him visiting me. It impacted me a lot.
I think you need to take this beautiful experience and run with it, Lindsea. Logan loved you and wanted the best for you. Even if it wasn’t “real,” it’s important because your heart is telling you what you need. xoxo
I can not imagine physically losing a family member. Further more, I can not fathom finding them only to confirm they are really gone. Such a circumstance would probably drive me to the looney bin, or worse, push me over the edge causing my family to lose two members instead of one. For this reason I wish you and your family strength and solidarity. May it ebb and flow amoung you, so when one of you gives in to the grief that will undoubtably overwhelm you (which is healthy), the rest of you will find the ability to gather and be strong despite the urge to fall in with them. May you all feel his presence and find strength within his energy. May you find a peace that will resonate and act as a beacon to carry you forward. Then, one day, I hope that same peace becomes a happy, warm, fuzzy feeling that creeps in and hugs you on days when the sorrow of his loss emerges and you find it easier to celebrate his life more and morn his passing less.
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It’s amazing what you can endure. Before this happened, I would’ve said the exact same thing — it’s something that happens to other people, something you read about in the newspaper. It changes you, no doubt. But life just keeps going.
Thank you so much for your kind words. Truly appreciated.
I’ve been following your story about Logan and am so sorry for you and your entire family.
I hope that you can continue to cling to each other along with the memories of your dear cousin at this difficult time. Prayers and love to you all.
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Thank you so much Andrea. It’s really nice to know that so many people care about us. In reality, we’re just one family in the world who lost one person. We’re like millions of others. I just happened to write about it. So we’re lucky to have people recognize our pain.