He’s Leaving Home…And Mom’s Going Nuts

– Posted in: Chronic Pain, Crazy Tammy, Family, Kid Friends, Life is Dangerous, Logan's Story, Mom dying, Mouths of Babes, Parenting, Personal Insanity, Sappy Tammy, School, Stuff I Probably Shouldn't be Thinkin', Thank God Your Father's Home, Worrying
I'm pretty sure this is how a turtle would feel if it stood up.

We're a family of three, not four this week (or four, not five, if you count the dog). Newt, our 10-year-old, is away for two nights with his classmates at a wilderness camp. At Lake Tahoe. In the snow. Fortunately he's not snow camping (because that's only for crazy people). They're in cabins with heat [...]

How I Bumped my Head and Lost my Mind

– Posted in: Chronic Pain, Elfie, Family, Grief, Logan's Story, Mom dying, Momless, Newt, Personal Insanity, Sappy Tammy, Tenzin, Thank God Your Father's Home
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One of my favorite lines of all time is from Young Frankenstein (coincidentally just viewed by the kids and me the other night -- they were, of course, totally impressed). Dr. Frankenstein and Igor have just pushed a coffin out of a grave, and Igor says, "Could be worse. Could be raining." Cue thunder clap [...]

Logan’s Story Part 13: Home

– Posted in: Family, Gratitude, Grief, Logan's Story, Mom dying, Reno, Sappy Tammy, Uncategorized
The Logan Pin

Logan finally came home yesterday. For those of you not following the story, my 24-year-old cousin drowned about a month ago at Lake Almanor, California. They didn't find his body for about three-and-a-half weeks. My aunt finally got his ashes yesterday. To say this was an arduous process would be an understatement. I don't want [...]

One More Best Day

– Posted in: Cancer Sucks, Chronic Pain, Crazy Tammy, Grief, Grown-up Friends, Mom dying, Personal Insanity, Sappy Tammy

So for the past two days, you could say I've been a bit weepy.Okay, that's actually not even close to accurate. "Weepy" implies some moments of tearing up. Maybe there's a tissue involved, but usually you can get away with a finger wipe. What I'm experiencing is more. . . sobbing. Yes, hysterical sobbing. That's [...]

There Can Be Only One

– Posted in: Cancer Sucks, Dogs, Family, Grief, Growing Up, Mawage, Mom dying, Momless, Personal Insanity, Sappy Tammy, Tenzin, Uno
Uno

I had to open the front door all by myself today.For the first time in almost ten years, the doorbell rang, and I found myself all alone, face-to-face with a strange man. No intimidating presence at my side. No low bark encouraging the guy to take a half-step back. No furry head pressed against my [...]

Sunday. . . Again

– Posted in: Grief, Mom dying, Parenting, Personal Insanity

I'm sort of cheating with this. There's a great women's writing group called The Red Dress Club that gives writing prompts to get your creative juices flowing. I read the assignment (about finding a lost article of clothing in the back of a drawer or closet) and thought of a post I did in June [...]

Deja Vu

– Posted in: Cancer Sucks, Cranky Tammy, Dogs, Elfie, Getting Older, Grief, Mom dying, Momless, Newt, Parenting, Personal Insanity, Travel, Vacation

We're less than two weeks away from the anniversary of my mom's death, and I stupidly (and, yes, incredibly) thought this would only be difficult on the actual day it occurred and not all the days leading up to it.  But then what would I know -- I'm a newbie mourner.My first clue was when [...]