Last night, right before I turned off my computer, I saw a Facebook post and remembered -- oh yeah, tomorrow is 9/11. And this was the first thought that entered my head: Damn it. I am so sick of 9/11. The last thing I want to do is post something on my page about it. [...]
How Kaepernick Helped Bring Football — and My Mom — Back Home
February 3, 2013 – Posted in: Bright Side of Life, Cancer Sucks, Memories, Mom dying, Sports, Worst Mom RandomnessThere's a running joke in my family that if you give me the back story on an athlete, you can get me to watch any sporting event. It's how my husband, Tenzin, got me to watch mixed martial arts. Show me a 3-minute package on a guy who grew up in the slums of Rio [...]
He’s Leaving Home…And Mom’s Going Nuts
January 23, 2013 – Posted in: Chronic Pain, Crazy Tammy, Family, Kid Friends, Life is Dangerous, Logan's Story, Mom dying, Mouths of Babes, Parenting, Personal Insanity, Sappy Tammy, School, Stuff I Probably Shouldn't be Thinkin', Thank God Your Father's Home, WorryingWe're a family of three, not four this week (or four, not five, if you count the dog). Newt, our 10-year-old, is away for two nights with his classmates at a wilderness camp. At Lake Tahoe. In the snow. Fortunately he's not snow camping (because that's only for crazy people). They're in cabins with heat [...]
How I Bumped my Head and Lost my Mind
November 12, 2012 – Posted in: Chronic Pain, Elfie, Family, Grief, Logan's Story, Mom dying, Momless, Newt, Personal Insanity, Sappy Tammy, Tenzin, Thank God Your Father's HomeOne of my favorite lines of all time is from Young Frankenstein (coincidentally just viewed by the kids and me the other night -- they were, of course, totally impressed). Dr. Frankenstein and Igor have just pushed a coffin out of a grave, and Igor says, "Could be worse. Could be raining." Cue thunder clap [...]
Logan’s Story Part 13: Home
October 19, 2012 – Posted in: Family, Gratitude, Grief, Logan's Story, Mom dying, Reno, Sappy Tammy, UncategorizedLogan finally came home yesterday. For those of you not following the story, my 24-year-old cousin drowned about a month ago at Lake Almanor, California. They didn't find his body for about three-and-a-half weeks. My aunt finally got his ashes yesterday. To say this was an arduous process would be an understatement. I don't want [...]
One More Best Day
August 27, 2011 – Posted in: Cancer Sucks, Chronic Pain, Crazy Tammy, Grief, Grown-up Friends, Mom dying, Personal Insanity, Sappy TammySo for the past two days, you could say I've been a bit weepy.Okay, that's actually not even close to accurate. "Weepy" implies some moments of tearing up. Maybe there's a tissue involved, but usually you can get away with a finger wipe. What I'm experiencing is more. . . sobbing. Yes, hysterical sobbing. That's [...]
There Can Be Only One
April 20, 2011 – Posted in: Cancer Sucks, Dogs, Family, Grief, Growing Up, Mawage, Mom dying, Momless, Personal Insanity, Sappy Tammy, Tenzin, UnoI had to open the front door all by myself today.For the first time in almost ten years, the doorbell rang, and I found myself all alone, face-to-face with a strange man. No intimidating presence at my side. No low bark encouraging the guy to take a half-step back. No furry head pressed against my [...]
Sunday. . . Again
February 18, 2011 – Posted in: Grief, Mom dying, Parenting, Personal InsanityI'm sort of cheating with this. There's a great women's writing group called The Red Dress Club that gives writing prompts to get your creative juices flowing. I read the assignment (about finding a lost article of clothing in the back of a drawer or closet) and thought of a post I did in June [...]
Coming Out of the Closet
July 3, 2010 – Posted in: Gratitude, Grief, Mom dying, Momless, Money, Parenting, Personal InsanityMy mom died a year ago today. I've heard people say this sort of thing a bunch of times, but it still feels like she's just on vacation in Asia or something. It's like we haven't seen her and she hasn't called for a while, but surely she'll be home soon.Today was actually fine. We [...]
Deja Vu
June 22, 2010 – Posted in: Cancer Sucks, Cranky Tammy, Dogs, Elfie, Getting Older, Grief, Mom dying, Momless, Newt, Parenting, Personal Insanity, Travel, VacationWe're less than two weeks away from the anniversary of my mom's death, and I stupidly (and, yes, incredibly) thought this would only be difficult on the actual day it occurred and not all the days leading up to it. But then what would I know -- I'm a newbie mourner.My first clue was when [...]
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