Haircuts and Butterflies — Unlocking the Secrets of the Universe

– Posted in: Beauty, Depression, First World Problems, Grief, Logan's Story, Memories, Personal Insanity, Sappy Tammy
Logan and Me at the Salon

Well, after three-and-a-half-plus months, I finally did it. I got my hair cut. I was starting to think I was going to end up like Crystal Gale. Or one of those Oprah makeovers where they find the woman who's also wearing huge glasses, circa 1970, and light blue mom jeans. I wasn't being a complete [...]

How I Bumped my Head and Lost my Mind

– Posted in: Chronic Pain, Elfie, Family, Grief, Logan's Story, Mom dying, Momless, Newt, Personal Insanity, Sappy Tammy, Tenzin, Thank God Your Father's Home
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One of my favorite lines of all time is from Young Frankenstein (coincidentally just viewed by the kids and me the other night -- they were, of course, totally impressed). Dr. Frankenstein and Igor have just pushed a coffin out of a grave, and Igor says, "Could be worse. Could be raining." Cue thunder clap [...]

Logan’s Story Part 13: Home

– Posted in: Family, Gratitude, Grief, Logan's Story, Mom dying, Reno, Sappy Tammy, Uncategorized
The Logan Pin

Logan finally came home yesterday. For those of you not following the story, my 24-year-old cousin drowned about a month ago at Lake Almanor, California. They didn't find his body for about three-and-a-half weeks. My aunt finally got his ashes yesterday. To say this was an arduous process would be an understatement. I don't want [...]

Logan’s Story Part 12: Found

– Posted in: Gratitude, Grief, Logan's Story
Logan heart

The Plumas County Search and Rescue called today. Logan was found. He'd floated to the surface and was spotted by a fisherman near the Pennisula, much farther away than we ever thought he'd be. Now it's just a matter of waiting for them to bring him home. Well, bring his ashes home, really. We're all [...]

And the World Kept on Spinning…

– Posted in: Gratitude, Grief, Logan's Story, Mean People, Parenting, Personal Insanity, School, Shopping Hell
The waiting is the hardest part

So I'm back in the saddle. At least that's the plan. Research shows that if a person smiles, it actually causes her brain to think she's happy. So in keeping with that theory, I'm just concentrating on doing what I do best -- writing, complaining, yelling at the kids -- in an attempt to start [...]

Logan’s Story Part 11: The Eulogy

– Posted in: Accidents, Family, Grief, Logan's Story, Personal Insanity
Logan

On September 15th, my 24-year-old cousin drowned at Lake Almanor, California. Like every death in any tightly knit group of people, it's changed our family forever. I tried to write Logan's eulogy for someone else to read, but I couldn't. Apparently I'm incapable of writing words that are so personal to someone else's heart. Unfortunately, [...]